Well, I’ve finished packing actually. It all fit better than I expected it too. There’s a little piece of my heart, however, that I couldn’t quite fit in. It’s the part of my heart that has the compartments for my dad, my mom, my sister, Kristin, Jenny, Ashley, home, church family, my own bed, privacy, warm showers, relaxation, peace, security and more.
I am excited to go back to college! My social life this Christmas break was next to nothing, so I’m looking forward to human contact and friends again. I miss my boyfriend and I get to see him again! I’m actually looking forward to having homework and learning things again. I get to be loud and obnoxious with my roommate again!
I don’t want to go back! I hoped the beak would rest me up to feel ready for the seemingly inevitable drama. But I don’t feel ready at all to face any of that. I was always the friend that would listen and right now I still feel too drained to care about people like I should. I also don’t want it to be -28 degrees! I don’t have fur, so I can’t handle that (although not shaving helps considerably)!
But, like it or not, I’m going back to college tomorrow afternoon. I’ll go to the airport, get on a plane, flap my arms for a few hours, hit the ground, and hopefully have a ride to the college. I have no idea what awaits me this semester. But I do know that you’re not supposed to start a sentence with “But” and that God has a wonderful plan for me. No matter how hard this semester is going to be, God already sees it all. I might as well completely trust in a God who knows way better than me what is good for me.
So…here I go…out into the unknown of Spring semester, 2010. I shall live this semester with as much trust and gusto as possible!